thoughts from someone dealing with doubt
Posted in Prayer of the Week, Scripture on Jun 1st, 2009
Hear, O LORD, when I cry aloud; be gracious to me and answer me! You have said, “Seek my face.“ My heart says to you, “Your face, LORD, do I seek.” Hide not your face from me. Turn not your servant away in anger, O you who have been my help. Cast me not off; [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on May 12th, 2009
God, life is too busy and too short to address these doubts of mine. Please don’t judge me for not believing. I’ve tried, but I’m getting burned out. The other areas in my life (wife, kids, jobs around the house, etc.) are suffering because of the time spent searching for you. I don’t understand why [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on May 4th, 2009
Lord you know what I need. You know that I’m like Thomas who needs evidence to believe. God, I need something, something objective. The subjective feelings and “personal experiences” that work for others, don’t work with me. I need something tangible. I’m sorry if this seems like I’m testing you, but you know me, and [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on Apr 26th, 2009
Lord, I am tired and weary of this struggle. Day after day I keep searching with no progress and if that wasn’t enough, the time I have to devote to studying and researching is getting shorter and shorter. Lord please don’t make this so tough, please be merciful on me. I sense the black clouds [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on Apr 19th, 2009
Jesus please seek this stranger who has wandered from the fold of God. Please rescue me from the danger of unbelief and doubt. Guard my heart from judging others and letting hypocritical actions influence my decision whether you are real or not. Let me get a glimpse of the big picture, and [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on Apr 12th, 2009
God, I want to find you. Show me how. I’m listening.
Posted in Prayer of the Week, Scripture on Apr 5th, 2009
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning?
O my God, I cry by day, but you do not answer,
and by night, but I find no rest.
Be not far from me,
for trouble is near,
and there is none to help.
I am poured out [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on Mar 29th, 2009
Lord God, please give me the patience to wait. Lord, keep me from becoming bitter that my will is not being done. I pray that I will keep in mind that if you are in control, you must have a reason for my unbelief, and that you will use it for your glory. [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week on Mar 22nd, 2009
Lord God, please help me in my unbelief. This past week I’m finding it harder to pray, harder to sing, harder to hope that I will have faith again. Lord, give me ears to hear, open my eyes to see, open my mind to think, open my heart to believe. Lord I need you to [...]
Posted in Prayer of the Week, Songs on Mar 15th, 2009
O great God of highest heaven
Occupy my lowly heart
Own it all and reign supreme
Conquer every rebel power
Let no vice or sin remain
That resists Your holy war
You have loved and purchased me
Make me Yours forevermore
I am blinded by my sin
Have no ears to hear Your voice
Have forgotten Your love within
Have no taste for heaven’s joys
Spirit, please [...]